Since my early 20s I have been fascinated by the life of the soul, meditation techniques, and mystical experiences – so much so that I pursued every spiritual avenue that presented itself to me without question or discernment for years – unless it was Catholic and or too Christian. I had rejected the Catholic Church in my teens. I could not cope with the feelings of guilt that plagued me from many of my early Catholic experiences. I believed in God, but I did not want to suffer, die and go to hell for my sins. I did not like it that Jesus suffered and died. By my mid-20s I found that having a guru and exploring Eastern religions and New Age metaphysics was so much more exciting, inspiring and pleasant!
God patiently endured through all my diverse spiritual endeavors – at least 20 years worth of seeking and finding, but not really finding. Then I would start my quest again – only to fall short again. I had a lot of unhealthy beliefs and issues about Christianity that were holding me back from what I was seeking. I was looking for a deep, fulfilling mystical experience of worship, prayer and community life. My spiritual thirst would not be quenched by my spiritual choices until I arrived at Eastern Orthodox Christianity and a relationship with the Living God. Eastern Orthodoxy is the only Christian church that has truly followed and kept the doctrines, traditions and teachings of the early Church and Christ.
Are the teachings of the early Church still applicable for modern seekers?
How can these traditions help us deal with the stresses of modern life?
Are there really folks that are authentically finding God in traditions 2,000 years old? Yes – I am one of them!
Can you follow your heart and not lose your soul?
I hope to explore these and many more questions and share my struggles and joys of being an Eastern Orthodox Christian in my blog. I invite you to journey with me. I could use questions and engaged comments. Thank you for visiting my blog and my God bless you!